christmas is coming

i'm totally happy because christmas is coming..yeay christmas! C= last year, i can't feel christmas as a happiness, because God took my Grandpa..but this year it has to! christmas has to give me such a big big happiness..=D talking about what i wanna do for christmas, hmmm..i'm going to find a present for him who went abroad and will go home soon..well, i dunno what he need these days, maybe i can guess it..but i think not now..hehehehe..C=

pianist, suddenly i remember him..the one who is cute, funny and rebel..i want you to read my christmas wish..here it is!

Dear pianist,

i know it is such a stupidity because i love you. it is such a bad decision to let my heart hope for your love, because your heart is still with her. but i can't forbid my heart to. i can't make a wish so you can love me back. because it is impossible. i just want you come back as the old pianist, who is my friend and near with me. not as far as now. i need you as my mood booster. i need you as my mood builder. although sometime you can easily ruin my mood. but it's okay. i can receive it. you are sweet as christmas candy, so i can smile as sweet as yours. please, for this christmas, please be my friend again. and i'll try and force my heart not to love you. because we are best friend!

best regard,

Fiona

=C

i wanna hear some christmas songs, so i can feel christmas as it is!

xoxo

C=